{"id":2265,"date":"2003-09-05T14:02:37","date_gmt":"2003-09-05T12:02:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2265"},"modified":"2003-09-05T14:02:37","modified_gmt":"2003-09-05T12:02:37","slug":"impatient","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2265","title":{"rendered":"Impatient"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>From this meeting the text is available:<\/p>\n<table>\n<tr>\n<td height=\"21\" colspan=\"3\" valign=\"top\"><span class=\"style14\">Germany, Munich, september 5,2003.<\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">No need to speak and you are most welcome to, if you like.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">There is one complex question that can wait. It is going on in my head and getting clearer and that&#8217;s for me an insight thing and I&#8217;ll see what happens. Basicly I don&#8217;t have questions. I am strugling with a paradox like: I&#8217;m so f*cking fed up with all the nonsense that is superfluous, not necessary anymore. I am really impatient. And it is becoming just in my investigation clear, as a metaphor, that when you have a swan feather on the surface of water and you want to force it in a certain direction by blowing it, even that is violence. And that makes me crazy, I want to do something. And I can see that &#8230; Well, I am going to sit in this <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Yeah.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">That&#8217;s a deal. And that&#8217;s about it. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">In this moment, no idea of anything being different, what&#8217;s here?<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Perception.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Perception.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">And in a small version of what used to be huge [the mind] there is a knowing of what is percieved. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">And beyond that knowing?<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Actually I heard myself think &#8216;oh shit&#8217; and I grabbed my chair. Can you ask that again?<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Beyond perception? <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Another way of saying it is: when you&#8217;re just here, and there is no energy spent to even know, what&#8217;s happening?<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">I get confused. There was a thought. Something like: before I can answer this I have to get into my legs. But this is not an experience, I only know this because the thought is there. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">So, some fun exploration.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Ja, absolutely. And I hear my mind commenting oh shit, I only wanted to say goodbye. I mean hello. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">May be it was more like good bye. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">And I know that there is a step that I don&#8217;t see or feel and I can feel the fear. And what is happening now can also happen over there and I stay for two weeks. Thank you. <\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td height=\"21\" valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">&nbsp;<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/table>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>From this meeting the text is available: Germany, Munich, september 5,2003. &nbsp; &gt; No need to speak and you are most welcome to, if you like. &nbsp; &lt; There is one complex question that can wait. 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