{"id":2270,"date":"2003-09-07T14:04:24","date_gmt":"2003-09-07T12:04:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2270"},"modified":"2024-03-13T21:58:46","modified_gmt":"2024-03-13T20:58:46","slug":"all-this-meaning-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2270","title":{"rendered":"All this meaning!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"embed-youtube\" style=\"text-align:center; display: block;\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" class=\"youtube-player\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/nraH0rXsvHo?version=3&#038;rel=1&#038;showsearch=0&#038;showinfo=1&#038;iv_load_policy=1&#038;fs=1&#038;hl=en-US&#038;autohide=2&#038;wmode=transparent\" allowfullscreen=\"true\" style=\"border:0;\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts allow-same-origin allow-popups allow-presentation allow-popups-to-escape-sandbox\"><\/iframe><\/span><\/p>\n<p>From this meeting the text is available:<\/p>\n<table>\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td colspan=\"3\" valign=\"top\" height=\"21\"><span class=\"style14\">Germany, Chiemsee, september 7, 2003.<\/span><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">You&#8217;re welcome to speak if you like and there is no need.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">I want to look into a question that is already with me for three years or so. Three years ago I asked the same question to Gopal [nowadays called Lodewijk] and he made a complete fool out of me for asking it. So, when I realised that I was going to ask this question to you I had to say that there was a double agenda: proving that it wasn&#8217;t a stupid question. But that part is dissolved completely. And it has changed into a complete different question; it&#8217;s the same words but it&#8217;s a question not from this mental storm but almost from here [the heart]. The question then was kind of a test: when I look when my mind is completely quiet to a text in my language, then immediatly I see the meaning, so the mind is not quiet. That was my idea. And now I can see that there is an immense longing to, let&#8217;s say, a pre verbal or pre language state. And just, when I was sitting over there, I could see that is is a wanting away from all this meaning. And yesterday you said to someone &#8216;just take all the objects away, then you get awareness&#8217;. But how does awareness know that it exists? I think, then, there is no knowing if existence.And in a way I found out that with this question, where I am longing for is at the same time dangerous. It&#8217;s connected really with the fear of dying. And really practical; after the last retreat in Venwoude, when I was in this hyper energetic state we made this excursion to this Babaji ashram and I didn&#8217;t dare drive my car because I had flashes of only seeing colours, so I had the fear when I would drive my car I could drive into a wall because of the attractiveness of its colour. So I am longing for something that is dangerous. So, here is a confusion. I want to look into this. It is as if the basic mind without nonsense has something like I won&#8217;t leave you before I know it&#8217;s safe. And maybe this is an enlightened mind fuck. I have no clou.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td colspan=\"3\" valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">Follows a silence of more than six minutes.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Nothing comes to my mind to say. And I enjoy hanging out with you very much.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">&lt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Maybe I&#8217;ll come up with another question next time. But now it&#8217;s totally empty.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Welcome.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\">&gt;<\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\">Thank you.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\" height=\"21\"><\/td>\n<td valign=\"top\"><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>From this meeting the text is available: Germany, Chiemsee, september 7, 2003. &gt; You&#8217;re welcome to speak if you like and there is no need. &lt; I want to look into a question that is already with me for three &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2270\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2270","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-satsang-isaac-hans"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1tD9I-AC","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2270","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2270"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2270\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5896,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2270\/revisions\/5896"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2270"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2270"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2270"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}