{"id":2513,"date":"2013-09-22T20:14:15","date_gmt":"2013-09-22T20:14:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2513"},"modified":"2013-09-23T10:43:35","modified_gmt":"2013-09-23T10:43:35","slug":"is-there-anybody-out-there","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2513","title":{"rendered":"Is there anybody out there?"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I followed the impulse to ask for permission to publish the following mail that was written today.<\/p>\n

So, with permission:<\/p>\n

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How are you doing? (Me asking this).<\/p>\n

Oh Man!<\/em>
\n (suffering) <\/em>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (Friend answering).<\/em><\/p>\n

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All I can do for you, for me, is feel your pain and embrace it.<\/p>\n

For the rest, in language pointing at what is here always.
\nWel, you know the language, there is nowhere to go etc.<\/p>\n

Yet, as long as we think we exist, it makes sense to seek.
\nHeard that yesterday beautifully put in words by Francis Lucille in the first 15 minutes of this youtube: http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=gNmnRuf8LTk<\/a><\/p>\n

Duality reappeared,<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

And where is it appearing in?<\/p>\n

separation hurts,<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Yes, it fucking hurts.
\n(You know the so called fuck-tape of Osho? He originally gave this answer after a lady sannyassin complained about his rude language: http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=6D7rWLzloOI<\/a>)<\/p>\n

and its freakin’ cold in my flat, the shower not really working and the renter left for holiday, so there is little i can do – apart from putting on 3 layers of clothes and moonboots INSIDE.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Yeah, taking a moonwalk thru your overdue maintenance practicallities.
\nStart 1-minute actions.<\/p>\n

I’d so like to take a break from this life, just cannot receive it “as the beloved” right now. \ud83d\ude41<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Stop fighting her, she wants you.<\/p>\n

I guess living as close to the waterline as you do may be cold too at times…
\nWhat do YOU do to stay warm?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

I put the heater up, works fine. Up till now.
\n((When I was in India last Januari the heater stopped and was repaired. Few month ago it stopped again and the whole thing was replaced by a new one).<\/p>\n

This last week in the cold almost pushed the nice memories out of the system, which in itself is painful to notice. Makes me sad, to find these words….<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

At the moment you wrote this, the beloved showed up as sadness.
\nJust feel it, cry, take good care of yourself.<\/p>\n

My own nervous system is a rather neurotic one.
\nAlready working on it since 1997.<\/p>\n

When I was starting the construction of the second B&B<\/a> I was rather tired from the first one<\/a>, and as I was often working alone and living on the job so to speak, as a means to slow myself down and have the body get some attention, I gave myself on my 60th birthday (Tomorrow 6 years ago) a massage as a present.
\nSince then I go to this sauna mostly twice a week and have a massage by Paul the Sufi. He massages me for 45 minutes and sings spiritual songs to that too.
\nIn Paradisum, for instance. Without the bells though. http:\/\/www.youtube.comwatch?v=7kK2m-EdQoI<\/a><\/p>\n

As we know: the nature of experience is: constantly changing…<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

It is just a matter of words, I know.
\nBut.
\nBut. But.
\nThe nature of experience is awareness and the so called content of experience is changing.
\nFortunately, otherwise we would not have an experience at all.<\/p>\n

(……)<\/p>\n

therefore – in a way – i find myself waiting for a better experience…<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Not therefor. You are fighting reality and waiting for a better experience is a easy way out of feeling the pain of it.
\nAlas, dissociation also hurts, this pain is just better camouflaged.<\/p>\n

Reminds me of the time in satsang where it happened that looking thru boredom happened.
\nSee the text of this here: https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/?p=2284<\/a><\/p>\n

Tear Down the Wall<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=KLwah-q6Z8E<\/a><\/p>\n

Love, …..<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Hug,<\/p>\n

hans<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

        I followed the impulse to ask for permission to publish the following mail that was written today. So, with permission:   How are you doing? (Me asking this). Oh Man! (suffering) \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (Friend answering).   All … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":2515,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2513","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-my-blog"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/pfthewall.gif","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1tD9I-Ex","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2513","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2513"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2513\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2518,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2513\/revisions\/2518"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2515"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2513"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2513"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hansvandergugten.nl\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2513"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}