For fun and to tease a bit, I took Derek as chairman in my last prozaic encounter with Ramji.
To my disappointment, Derek failed in the aftermath of the first meeting that he was preciding. Again he took Ramji’s connecting the so called qualifications for advaita vedanta with people that can’t stand his way of nagging other teachers serious.
And he advised me again to go work on my qualification for advaita vedanta in his comment under Ramji and Meji 7 .
(I just noticed that I unnoticed turned it around in the title to Mej and Ramji, which
kind of reflects what is happening here, so will leave it like that).
And chairman Derek suggested that I wrote my review because I “just feel rejected by Ramji, since he declared you not qualified for Vedanta.”
To begin with, that is not what James did, he just stated that people who can’t stand the kind of criticism he utters about other teachers, especially the ones he calls neo advaitins, that those people are not qualified for advaita vedanta.
I have seen and labelled this from the beginning as pure nonsense and taken it as James’ defence mechanism in action. As a resistence against my stament, my sharing, that what he does is painfull to me. Or more specific, for my body/mind system.
And I just can’t accept this denial. Meaning again, that this is painfull. And yes, I can be with the pain and melt in it. And yes, in this case there was a strong urge to keep expressing this over and again.
As mentioned before, when I met for the first time with James and I told him about my family and said that I should have walked away from them, he bluntly asked “Why didn’t you?” Confusing question, because where can you go as a boy of ten years old?
Later I wrote him that I apparently had to write my family all those letters first, which I did only recently.
The same has happened between James and me: after I walked out of him, I started writing him. And up till now he has been so kind to write me answers.
The saddening side of this is that his clumsy reach, claiming that those who can’t stand his criticism of other teachers are not qualified for advaita vedanta, gets even clumsier in his last answer.
When he defended himself wtith the argument that he uses good arguments for his neo bashing (his own words), I repeated that I was only talking about his way of doing it. And promised to look into his arguments. This resulted in my writing a review on his article Neo-Advaita. (See Ramji and Meji 7).
His answer came quick as always and now he even suggests that I am not aware that advaita vedanta is only for the mentally healthy.
Tsja.
Chairman Derek, so far you have taken this clumsy reach too serious and again you have advised me, right after presiding your first meeting with us, to go along with that.
I have accused you of having taken sides in this, yet it is now clear to me that your’s is also a clumsy reach. Yet it will have consequences for your career as a chairman:
Chairman Derek, you are fired.
I’m done with this story. I learned a lot from it. Thank you all.
Here is James Swartz’ answer to my review, dated 29-10-2014:
Dear Hans,
I am glad that things are getting more clear for you. I think you do not know that Vedanta is for people who are psychologically healthy. I am sorry you suffered the abuse you did and I am sorry that the wound takes so long to heal but it is not my job to heal people’s psychological wounds. If, when a person’s wound is healed, he wants to discover the woundless self, then that is where I come in. When a person suffers he usually projects the suffering on someone or something else. People project wonderful things on me and they project awful things on me but I know that what they see in me has nothing to do with me so I am not bothered by their praise or blame. I didn’t create your wound and I am not responsible for healing it. I am just a person who teaches Vedanta.
Love,
James
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The main insight that brought a lot of clarity in this story happened last September during a retreat. It was when a in my system stored deep sadness surfaced, that appeared to be related to this: “By my educators the Highest, the Widest was always used to narrow you down”. (See this video).
This playing the card of qualifications for advaita vedanta by James was for me a simular abuse of supposed power.
I had to stay around till this was 100 % clear.
Here is the cartoon that I found last week on the website of the naked pastor:
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Whether you appoint me or fire me is all fine, since I am your projection to begin with.
You should consider yourself fortunate with Ramji’s considerate reply.
He makes it very clear where whose responsibilities lie.
I hope this will help you on your way onwards.
As for me, I am gone.
Adieu, adieu, remember me